The last five to six-ish weeks of the semester are always the hardest. (In my opinion at least.)
And I don’t know if it’s because I really because I’m not really into my classes this semester, but I’m kind of (possibly thinking about, wondering how much work it would be, how I would go about doing it, who I would talk to about it, if I even can because the school is so impacted) considering changing my major. I don’t know what it is, but ever since I transferred to SJSU I haven’t really been into my English major. I don’t feel like it’s what I want to do anymore, and I don’t really feel like I’m good at it. The grades I’ve been getting aren’t really that impressive, and I feel out of place in my classes. Like everyone is operating on a different frequency than I am. I don’t know if I still want to be a book editor, or even if I want to write.
But at the same time…then what do I do? Do I major in Lib Arts? Humanities? Art History? Then what do I do with my life? If I major in Art History what the hell do I do with my life? Become a museum curator? Aren’t Humanities and Lib Arts in the same family as English? If then do I bother? Why do I have cranberry juice but no vodka? I have so many questions and no direction at all. I only went to one class this week. To be fair, I didn’t have class today. But I did the other three days, and I only made it to one class. Not one day, one class. Out of five. I might not be considering majoring in math as a major but 4/5 classes attended is not good.
Is this what a quarter life crisis looks like? Because it feels like one.
I really hope that this is just because of the time of the semester, and because I kind of hate my classes this semester.
I think I have a lot of thinking to do this summer before I pick classes for the fall semester.
